on my way.

So I'm on my way to see stomp which is going to be wicked good.

Can I just say that my aunt gave me freakin jelly bellys for my birthday. It was a late present which is why.I'm speaking out about it now. Idk either way she obviously dosent know much about me so when she searches for a gift she opts to get me something strange like that.

So anywho besides that today I got up cleaned the bathroom and went to the mall. I went into oscain because I wanted to find a sweet v neck shirt that went with these pants that I got. No luck. But I did find a really nice pair of Levis for only twenty bucks.

Anyway we are on the road and making our way to the show. I'm pretty excited to go other than I won't be sitting with the family and ill be the only one who is in a different row.

the laramie project

I woke up and cleaned my room. I recently obtained two more hollister posters. So I had to make wall space for them both. They are both male but I highly doubt that my dad will think that they are so gay and disown mean which is always one of the stupid irrational fears in the back of my head. Anyway at least my room is all clean.

I also went to school and visited a few teachers whom said I looked really good which made me very happy!

I went to the school play which was called the laramie project. Now let me start off by saying I was expecting to be blown away again because last years play was awesome. And with this play being about the story of Matthew Shepard the college student who was beaten to death simply because of his sexual preference I expected only the best. Well I'm sad to say the best is not what I got. It wasn't very touching. Not in anyway.

But before I even went to the play I ate dinner with heather and dad. You know heather isn't bad. She was asking me all of these questions about my job and stuff. She obviously takes far more interest in my life than my own father. Which doesn't say much since he takes little to no interest at all.

I also talked to Kevin for a really long time about a lot of things. Idk if he was cool about talking or what but it was nice to have a friend to talk to about all the stuff I never really can tell anyone else.

first post in a while

Allright so I guess ill post from my phone since it will be the only way that I will post. Or even remember to post.

So anywho a lot happend today other than like school and stuff. I called shelbey today and that was good I mean we talked for probably an hour. I really liked talking to her again. I feel like I can talk to her about anything. Also she said that she was going to the gym everyday...um shit I need to go to the gym. I know I don't look bad but I definitely don't look amazing.

I also talked to Kevin m today. All through text and facebook. He's a really cool kid. He said that he has really low self confidence and I hope to change that for him.

ALMOST WALKED HOME

okay so the whole time at the beach i REALLY really really missed my freakin BFF shelbey. i never realized how close i am with her until i didnt have her around. i swear to god i missed her so much that i almost walked home.

on the way home i was thinking about how excited i was gonna be to see her and how i was going to give her the biggest hug i think i'll ever give out in my entire life. as i was thinking about it i almost teared up. i was about to cry! why? idk. i freaking..idk.

idk what i'd do without her.
and the best part is...i get to see her soon!!!!
i hope.

CRAZY BITCH!
i might have just spent one week of my life with the devils daughter.
i swear to the good lord above this CRAZY bitch was about to look like the picture above. i wanted nothing more then to completely fuck her up. i cant even type out how crazy this stupid girl is. its not even worth my time.
i swear to god if she fucking died some horrible death right infront of me i might just smirk!!!

thats one week of my life i'll never get back.
it taught me one thing..i sure do appreciate my friends!

Will you kiss me?
so i went to work today at dulles towne center. it was fun. actually it was alot of fun. i love going to new places where no one knows me. i feel good about myself. like people want to know me. anyway...i was in the back and the lead stock/assisstant manager asked me if i would kiss him. this kid was HOTTT! i would have totally done it. he got my number (from brianna) and we started texting. he said he got nervous when i walked into the room. he was shy and scared to kiss me. and i totatally played it off like i wasnt scared to kiss this dude at all.when in fact i was more scared then him. but confidence is sexy and thats what i was trying to be.

so i ended up having to leave before i could even kiss the guy. idk...im going back to work there because they said they'd need me agian. so im sure eventually i will kiss him. man...idk what it is with gays but they think im so hott. girls just dont. idk why. its not like im so gay that it would be wierd for a girl to like me. girls just turn me down left and right...but its the opposite with guys.

either way it was a pretty exciting day at work. haha. :)

AM I THE ONLY ONE?!
take a good look at that picture. see that fucking polar bear? do you see any icebergs within reach? no. you dont. thats because they are all melting. so the polar bears are fucking drowning. i dont understand. its like no one fucking cares. REGARDLESS of whether or not global warming is real or not these icebergs are melting at a very unnatural rate and there are MANY things we can do to prevent this. but because people are so god damn selfish about the stupidist shit they neglect to do anything.

how hard is it to contribute. do your fucking part. i swear to god i dont understand why no one seems to care. A WHOLE ISLAND IS GOING TO DISAPPEAR!!!!! all the people that live on that island will die because they have no means of technology to get to another land mass. in every other country besides fucking america global warming is not a theory its reality. do you think the people on that island believe that global warming is real? i fucking wonder.

i swear to god. i dont know what happend and when i started to feel this way about the environment but god damn i get so emotional about it. the people who dont believe half of the shit that is right infront of them dont believe it because they havnt done any research in order to gain knowledge about the fucking subject. dont fucking argue with me about the fucking environment. IM DEDICATING MY LIFE TO THE ENVIRONMENT!!!!! dont tell me that nothing is wrong. do some fucking research then come back to me with some statistics or some fucking facts to back your niave opinion up. do that or dont even bring it up!