IVE FOUND A POSSIBLE ANSWER
so i have these intense mood swings right? right. well i've always thought nothing of it until latley. when other people have been noticing it aswell. i think i might have bipolar disorder. im way to afraid to confront my dad about that. he always said he never believed my mom, because she had it. he says its an excuse for people who cant deal with their simple lives and make things more complicated then they are. but..i ask myself..am i trying to make things more complicated? am i trying to be stressed out? do i try to change my mood all the sudden? no. isnt that a disorder then? if i cant control it then i need an outside source or substance to help requlate it so i can get a better hold on life. idk. i might confront my dad about the issue before college. i mean..i would really like to be as stable as possible in college.
the whole thing is frustrating. why do i feel like i have all these problems?! more problems then the average kid. i try not to let it get to me. i try not to complain i REALLY do. but..sometimes..i do complain. sometimes...i do wanna take an easy route out of all this. but i wont. i have to be strong..i have people rooting for me! i have people who want to see me succeed. and if there is one thing i wont do, its to let those who wish to see me fail smile with satisfaction.
2 comments:
first of all, cool pic. second of all, what are you gonna ask your dad about? money for a doctor/meds? i'm just wondering why you need to tell him about it. if it's about those two things, then that makes sense. and secondly, who wants to see you fail?? i'll kick their butts! okay, maybe i won't LITERALLY. but honestly, i can't think of one person evil enough who wants to see you fail... and yet you say "those" as if there is more than one. i'm confused.
oh shelbs.
there are alot
of people who would
like to see me fail.
alot of people hate
me. alot of people
are jealous, or just
genuinely hate me.
and yes..ask my dad
for money for meds.
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